- July 19th, 2011
BAH! Tuesdays! I hate when WoW goes down for maintenance. >.>
But I'm just sort of spending some quiet time, chilling at home, watching The Princess Bride. And it's actually kind of nice. I love the peace, I love the quiet.
Got discharged from day treatment for breaching confidentiality by accident, but tbh I really don't care lol... I'm glad to be free. I really haven't wanted to go for quite some time.
"No more rhymes now, I mean it!"
"Anybody want a peanut?!"
There's been some guild drama going on too, heh. Two people in the guild have been altogether incorrigible for quite some time. Disrespectful, just sort of general assholes, et cetera. I'm co-GM, and I was considering gquitting because they were making life so miserable until I remembered "Oh yeah... I can kick them." I didn't want it to seem random, however, so I waited until the next time drama arose.
I didn't have to wait long.
A former member returned to my guild, and these two parties were both pissed about his return. I told them I was giving him a second chance, and that they'd have to deal. They ended up picking a fight with him- a lore debate. Fun. One of the two was consistently disrespectful, name calling, telling him to shut up, et cetera. Our guild is an RP guild, so I PMed him saying, "You have one our to roleplay your exit, because your kick is imminent." He RPed his exit and gquit.
His friend reported everything we were saying to him. He ended up getting kicked as well for maintaining/prolonging drama.
The problem is... our guild out of character was one of the easily joined channels, not in /o. Although it should have been, and that situation has since been rectified.
So he remained in our OOC channel. We made a new channel and went there for a while, and he remained in our old one.
The gentleman who got kicked first PMed me and asked if I would allow the second person to come back to the guild. Said he really missed the guild, et cetera. I apologized, tried to be kind but firm. He had badmouthed officers while he was IN the guild, he was just sort of an asshat in general most of the time... the first guy said, "Well, you gave the guy that came back a second chance." I told him, "What makes you think this would be his second chance?" Most of our officers have hated having him in the guild for quite some time, but didn't feel we really had a reason to kick him and that it would be petty to kick him just because we didn't like him. He was rude consistently, and we gave him multiple warnings, told him he was on his last leg, et cetera, and his behavior still continued.
So it came to a point where a few of us within the guild were in Darkshire RPing. I threw out my recruitment macro. The previous member decided to start trolling the guild. One of our guildies, who still had him on RID, told us it was him- because it was a different toon name.
So I PMed him to talk about it. Airing your drama out in front of General anywhere is never a good idea.
During the process of the conversation, he told me to go cut myself. Then told me to go kill myself.
I have 8 years of self-injury, and 2 suicide attempts under my belt. This kid fucking knew that. How dare he say such a thing? I'm angry about the comment, but more than that, I'm really, really hurt. To play on a person's weakness like that... it's really fucking low.
I'm not sure what it is that makes it hurt so badly. I don't particularly like the kid, I don't give a damn about his opinion... I guess it's just that he found the chink in my armor, drove a knife in, and fucking twisted.
Immediately after he says it, he goes, "I didn't mean it." The damage was already fucking done, you fucking asshat. What the fuck, you think saying 'you didn't mean it' will make it go away? Jesus, I know you're 15, but seriously, is there no common sense in that brain of yours?
I told him "Fuck you, there's no chance you're rejoining our guild now. Learn some fucking tact." And left that at that. There's no reason to let him know he hurt me.
But goddammit.... he did.
And I feel ridiculous, and kind of stupid, because a 15 year old's words can cut so deeply.